Monday, April 21, 2014

Day 13 Grieving and Cumulative Nos from God

Journal April 20, 2014, Easter Sunday, 107 p.m.

I have taken four days to try to process the latest of seven major life-changing nos God has said in my life (maybe caused and/or maybe allowed) in my life over the last year or so. Each no has been highly painful. They have had a cumulative effect.

I'm not sure if they're permanent nos or no for now, as far as three of them. But, I know four are, in fact, permanent nos.

The truth of the matter is I am four days into my latest round of grief and I am still not sure what to think, how to feel, what to do, etc. I am rather lost and am confused. I'm still grieving.

Day 14, Part 1 Verses to Cling to When in a Time God Says No or Wait

Day 14 Verses to Cling to When in a Time God Says No or Wait

Psalm 46:1-3 / Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)

For the choir director. A song of the sons of Korah. According to Alamoth.

1 God is our refuge and strength,

a helper who is always found

in times of trouble.

2 Therefore we will not be afraid,

though the earth trembles

and the mountains topple

into the depths of the seas,

3 though its waters roar and foam

and the mountains quake with its turmoil. Selah

-- HCSB: Scripture quotations marked HCSB are taken from the Holman Christian Standard Bible®, Copyright © 1999, 2000, 2002, 2003, 2009 by Holman Bible Publishers. Used by permission. Holman Christian Standard Bible®, Holman CSB®, and HCSB® are federally registered trademarks of Holman Bible Publishers.

Mark 10:27 / Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)

27 Looking at them, Jesus said, “With men it is impossible, but not with God, because all things are possible with God.”

Philippians 4:4-13 / Expanded Bible (EXB)

4 ·Be full of joy [Rejoice] in the Lord always. I will say again, ·be full of joy [rejoice].

5 Let everyone see that you are ·gentle [kind; considerate; patient]. The Lord is ·coming soon [orclose at hand; L near]. 6 Do not ·worry [be anxious] about anything, but pray and ·ask God for everything you need [or make your requests known to God], always giving thanks. 7 And God’s peace, which ·is so great we cannot understand it [transcends/surpasses all comprehension], will ·keep [guard] your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

8 [L Finally; In conclusion; or Now then] Brothers and sisters, ·think about [focus your thoughts on; fill your minds with] things that are true and honorable and ·right [just] and pure and ·beautiful[lovely] and ·respected [commendable]. If there is anything that is ·good [morally excellent] and worthy of praise, ·think about [focus your thoughts on; fill your minds with] these things. 9 Do what you learned and received and heard ·from [L in] me, and what you saw ·me do [L in me]. And the God ·who gives [L of] peace will be with you.

10 I ·am very happy [L rejoiced greatly] in the Lord that you have ·shown [renewed; revived] your ·care [concern] for me again. You continued to ·care [be concerned] about me, but ·there was no way for you [you had no opportunity] to show it. 11 I am not telling you this because I need anything. [L For] I have learned to be ·satisfied [content] ·whatever the circumstances [or with whatever I have]. 12 I know how to live when I am ·poor [in humble circumstances], and I know how to live when I have plenty. I have learned the ·secret of being happy [L secret] ·at any time in everything that happens [or in any and all circumstances], when I have enough to eat and when I go hungry, when I have ·more than I need [plenty; an abundance] and when I do not have enough. 13 I can do all things through ·Christ, because he [L the one who] gives me strength.

Psalm 105:1-6 / GOD’S WORD Translation (GW)

1 Give thanks to the Lord.

Call on him.

Make known among the nations what he has done.

2 Sing to him.

Make music to praise him.

Meditate on all the miracles he has performed.

3 Brag about his holy name.

Let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.

4 Search for the Lord and his strength.

Always seek his presence.

5 Remember the miracles he performed,

the amazing things he did, and the judgments he pronounced,

6 you descendants of his servant Abraham,

you descendants of Jacob, his chosen ones.